The Interview: An Unexpected Trust

27 02 2012

A couple of weeks ago I was privileged to visit one of our great national treasures, a 91-year-old holocaust survivor. The purpose of the visit was to do an interview, but in some ways I found myself being a student rather than an inteviewer.

Her name is Diet Eman. She was barely 20 years old when the war broke out in the Netherlands, and as the Nazi regime took control, she and her fiance became involved in sheltering and finding new identities for the Jewish people in their area. They paid a great price for that activity. Diet was hunted by the Gestapo for her part in the underground and, despite changing her identity and going into hiding, was eventually arrested. She spent time in a prison and then was taken to a concentration camp. Her survival, she says, was “of God,” but her fiance gave the ultimate sacrifice. He died at Dachau in January of 1945, just four months before the liberation.

For many years, Diet was pshychologically unable to talk about the war. The things she had seen and endured were too much for her to process. But in the early 1990′s a conversation with James Schaap changed all that. He encouraged Diet to write her story, and offered his help. It was, he urged, a story that needed to be told, lest the next generation forgets. As a result, Things We Couldn’t Say became a testament to the resilience, courage and faith exhibited by a vast number of individuals involved in the underground movement in that tiny country while under the crushing power of the Third Reich. It is the true definition of selflessness.

I feel so blessed to have been able to talk with Diet, and to be allowed to see her most precious possession–a letter from her fiance as he was being transported to Dachau. He had thrown it out of the train with the hope it would somehow reach her. It did. “A miracle,” she said. The tiny letter, about 1 1/2 by 2 1/2 inches in size, was found in the bushes and sent to Diet. She has many mementos of those years, but that one item, the smallest of them all, is the one she holds in her heart. She can recite every word.

I highly recommend the book. It is a story of heroism, faith, courage, dedication, and a true account of history at a time when hell seemed to have been visiting on earth.

Diet was kind enough to lend me two books from her library. One I will never forget is titled Nach Und Nebel, Night and Fog, by Floris Bakels. His story of life in the concentration camps is riviting and shows, without wavering, the true horror prisoners endured. The book is not for the faint of heart, however, since he spares no details.  It is, Diet said, one of the most accurate, true accounts of life in the camps that she has ever read.

At the end of two hours I felt as though I had made a new friend. The conversation covered past, present and future, and I found Diet to be one of the most open, honest people I have ever met. Her faith is unwavering, her willingness to speak of it to total strangers is humbling, and her ability to see humor and hope in the darkest of situations is unparalleled. What an incredible woman.





Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow

24 02 2012

What a gorgeous day today. I woke to tree branches draped with white, fluffy flakes and snow gently drifting down and covering the lawn like an eider-down quilt. A cup of coffee, my laptop and comfy slippers. . . what could be better?

My writing group gave me some solid feedback last night on a segment of my novel, The Last Good Summer, suggestions I’m eager to work into the pages I shared.

And then I have two great books waiting to be read–Nacht Und Nebel (Night and Fog) by Floris Bakels, which is a first-hand account of an Auschwitz survivor, and Night by Elie Weisel, also autobiographical about survival in Auschwitsz. Heavy reading material? Absolutely. But I’m finding myself drawn into the realities more and more after writing Passages, a novel set in World War II. Most of us are so far removed from that war and the atrocities enacted by the Nazi regime that we look at it as purely history, a story, rather than something evil and unspeakable that happened to real people by real people. Everyone should acquaint themselves with this part of history, if only to be sure we never repeat what happened then.

So: coffee, laptop, comfy slippers and two excellent books. My day couldn’t get any better.





On writing, public speaking and the effect of nerves: My personal rant

20 02 2012

Today I’m polishing up five poems to submit to Dyer Ives. I’ve had them workshopped, read them over a hundred times, analyzed my choices, and debated:
Are they my best?
Will the judges like the style of poetry I’ve chosen?
Will they even think of them as works of poetry?
What am I doing submitting to such a prestigious contest?
Yikes.

Then my mind moves to this coming weekend. I’ve had a poem accepted for publication by Artifactory in Kalamazoo. I have to do a reading for that poem on Sunday. The nerves are setting in, because I don’t do well with public speaking–it’s not that I can’t read well. I know I can. It’s those darn nerves.

Standing in front of a group of people to read aloud something I’ve written is a bit daunting for me. I have many writer friends who are so composed and can read without a quaver in their voices. I want to be them . . . poised and confident.

I’d rather be in my comfort zone, sitting at my laptop, gazing out the window into my back yard, writing.

I’ll be doing a lot of deep breathing this week, along with other more meditative exercises. I hope it helps.

Any suggestions on how to calm the jitters?

 








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